Okay, so I made it through five days. Each session seems harder. But I am still anxious to get there and workout, it is a place that I find comfortable.
Yesterday, I completed my first full week of Monday, Wednesday and Thursday sessions. Monday Crossfit was good, (Sundays are my most physical days each weeks, with last Sunday I had 4 1/2 hours of baseball workouts in two towns, so I had pushed myself). Monday at New Haven CrossFit we began progressing onto harder things, repeating techniques and I was holding my own. Tuesday, I had my last "core" training session with Erica Pac at the baseball program in Milford, and she pushed the envelope of my entire body, especially my legs, I tell you this because by Wednesday I was still a bit sore from Tuesday's workout when I arrived at New Haven CrossFit, man did Adam turn up the pain threshold.
Wednesday my first feelings of frustration began to creep in. Some of the moves and positions seemed darned impossible to do, yet the others in my class eventually did them. The harder I tried, the weaker I felt. It was my first doubting thought and Oh My God moment. This CrossFit is all about testing your limits, I was kind of mad I had hit some wall already. I try to remind myself that I am the youngest one there, but I don't like excuses and I still feel I should be getting this done. The coach and the people in my group are helpful and encouraging in helping me push myself. The Wednesday's workout was really pumping, really powerful and I struggled with the some parts and some of the arm lifts, especially upper arms.
The pain threshold had been found and Wednesday had left me battered, Thursday left me bruised. After Wednesday, the next day I was a bit sore and I had another full day with baseball tryouts until 4 pm, followed by baseball practice in the rain until 6 :15, then CrossFit New Haven at 6:30. I jumped right in and felt good. Pretty quickly, the workout took a turn for th worst, my legs wobbled, and I struggled a bit, then we did medicine ball drills, and I regained my balance, but with each progressing squad, the fire in my legs was roaring, I made it through, medicine ball wall toss, that was fine, then the dreaded Burpees came and kicked my butt, bad!
By the time we got to head-standing arm push up, my entire body was howling. I again felt frustration as I could not get the drill done the way we were being taught, and again, it seemed everyone else eventually getting it, except me. Although frustrated and kind of mad, I did some shortened version, while promising myself I will be doing that drill the right way before this On Ramp program is done.
When CrossFit uses words like fear, pain and disbelief, all of those are available at CrossFit New Haven, I found them all Thursday. But all of those are outweighed by the feelings of accomplishment when you do get something right after struggling and the overwhelming determination you get in fighting frustration. I can honestly say, if I was allowed to swear, I would use a few words here to describe how wobbly I was when I got home Thursday night from having expended every ounce of energy I had. And yet, I am proud I made it through, it hurt, but it was good, sleep was easy, real easy.
This training is grueling, but I am liking it. I am frustrated that I am not strong enough to do some of the things we are doing, but some of these drills are INSANE! I am determined to get the parts I didn't get done finished and will be doing side work just to reach those goals. I am also gonna try out some of the Paleo meals this week, I am burning a lot of energy and I am told it will help me. You gotta believe, you gotta have faith.
It's Friday, it's a now a FREE day, light baseball Saturday, long day of baseball Sunday, and back and ready to go at hard at CrossFit Monday!
25 Out.
